Beyond Words

My husband and I often look at our daughter and are amazed at how far she has come. Sometimes those four months in the hospital and the year that followed when she came home seem like a bad dream. Did we really go through that?  Was she really that small and fragile?

We know that she would not be here without the wonderful staff of her hospital and in particular the nurses that took care of her day after day.  We keep in touch with a couple of them and send a letter to the hospital with a picture on her birthday letting them know what has happened in her life.

But, how do you thank someone them?  Words just aren't enough. How can I express my gratitude for them saving my daughter on a daily basis (sometimes hourly)?  I know to them it is just a job but that is our daughter and they saved her when there was nothing we could do but watch. Please know that if you are a NICU worker that we thank you...more than words could ever express.

All Other Ground Is Sinking Sand

While Morgan was in the hospital, several people made comments like, "I don't know how you do it," "you are really strong," and "I don't think I could make it." 

Well...I didn't do it.....I am weak.....I didn't make it.  God did. 

There is no way a person can make it out of  a situation like having your child fighting for their life, day after day, without God, wether they believe in him or not. No one is strong enough, brave enough, determined enough. I think of the song, "On Christ the Solid Rock I Stand, All Other Ground Is Sinking Sand." God gave me strength to get though it even in the darkest hours. 

It is impossible to explain the power that God has in situations like this. I, Lindsay, would never have been able to have a child naturally after 5 days of labor, hold my daughters hand who is only days old as they put a PICC line in her veins, or stand by her side not knowing if her next breath will be her last. No human, not even a mommy, could do this alone.